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grandma

Every time I visit my paternal grandmother at my uncle’s house, without fail, she would ask about how I’m doing at school, and then I’ll remind her that I’m in the army now, and she’ll comment, with genuine surprise, that I’m already in the army and tells me to be careful.

Problem is, in her memory, I’ll forever be the school-going grandson of hers who had just enlisted in the army. Though, I’m actually glad that I still exist in her memory.

It’s scary to imagine that one day, my parents, or even myself, just might suffer the same fate as her.

I don’t know what your attitude towards your grandparents are, but I love my grandparents to bits.

Till the next time, it’s me, woonie, signing off.

birthday

Why is it that, even after
1. removing the display of my birthday on my profile,
2. keeping my 11B out of sight for at least 3 weeks
3. keeping a low profile for a week
…my bunkmates still remember when my birthday is?

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Birthday celebs this year had been awesome. Though, having pizzas for 2 days in a row, lots of cake and other junk food over the weekend, plus not much PT in the week after that, had made me terribly unfit, so much so that when the super-xiong PT resumed on Thursday, I was almost breathless after 20mins of non-stop running and couldn’t keep up with my pre-pizza pace.

Nevertheless, I’d really like to thank everyone for
1. Pool @ Beauty World
2. Lunch @ Wishbone
3. CTR @ Aaron’s
4. Pizza @ Pizzarella
5. the Oreo Cheesecake
6. the stayover
7. everything else.

(:

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Have I mentioned that constructing a ghillie suit is horribly tedious?

And why why why have I not received any offers from NUS? ):

Till the next time, it’s me, woonie, signing off.

scholarship

Civil Service scholarship rejected, and they didn’t even bother forwarding my app to ‘the relevant ministries’. Time will tell if this is in fact a blessing in disguise. But for now, I shall be utterly depressed about it.

IPPT and 24-hour Guard Duty tomorrow. Will be missing RJ Photog’s outing to the Old Changi Hospital. ):

And I want to watch Detroit Metal City!

(Must remember to continually update my hardcopy NS journal.)

Till the next time, it’s me, woonie, signing off.

Our insignificant existence

Went on a Melancholy of Haruhi anime marathon last weekend, and I came across this little recollection by Haruhi, which I can’t help but find it similar to what I had thought about many times when I was younger:

Say. Have you ever realized how insignificant your existence is on this planet?

I have. It’s something that I’ll never forget.

During elementary school, when I was in sixth grade, the whole family went to watch a baseball game at the stadium. I wasn’t particularly interested in baseball, but I was shocked once we got there.

There were people everywhere I looked.

The ones on the other side of the stadium looked like squirming grains of rice all packed together. I wondered if every last person in Japan had gathered in this place.

And so, I asked my dad, exactly how many people were in the stadium? His answer was that a sold-out game meant around fifty-thousand people.

After the game, the path to the station was flooded with people. The sight stunned me. So many people around me, yet they only made a fraction of the people in Japan.

Once I got home, I got a calculator and did the math. We learned that the Japanese population was a hundred million and some in social studies. Divide fifty thousand into that, and you only get two-thousandth.

I was stunned again.

Not only was I just one little person in that sea of people in that stadium, but that sea of people was merely a drop in the ocean.

I had thought myself to be a special person up until that point.

I enjoyed being with my family, and most of all, I thought that my class in my school had the most interesting people in the world.

But, that was when I realized it wasn’t like that. The things that happened in what I believed to be the most enjoyable class in the world could be found happening in any school in Japan. Everyone in Japan would find them to be ordinary occurances.

Once I realized this, I suddenly found that my surroundings were beginning to lose their colour.

Brush my teeth and go to sleep at night.
Wake up and eat breakfast in the morning.

People do those everywhere.

When I realized that everyone did all these things on a daily basis, everything started to feel so boring. And if there were so many people in the world, there had to be someone living an interesting life that wasn’t ordinary.

I was sure of it.

Why wasn’t that person me?

That’s all I could think about until I graduated from elementary school. And in the process, I realized something: Nothing fun will happen if you sit around waiting. So I figured I would change myself in middle school. Let the world know that I wasn’t a girl content with sitting around and waiting. And I conducted myself accordingly.

But in the end, nothing ever happened.

Before I knew it, I was in high school. I thought something would have changed.

…

Till the next time, it’s me, woonie, signing off.

One Thursday Morning…

After PT
As I sat on the grandstand
Looking forward
Admiring the sunrise
As it peeked from behind Pulau Ubin (I think)
I looked down
At my compass
That was strapped to my watch
And found that
North was to my right.
And I was, like,
WTF?!

On a related note, I saw pigs fly.

Till the next time, it’s me, woonie, signing off.

It’s things like this that make things a little more enjoyable

Watching the sunrise over the sea horizon

while doing PT

at the top of the MSVP,

Gazing at the stars in the cloudless night sky

while getting to sleep

on the muddy grass patches of Tekong,

I wonder

if I will ever get the chance

to spend such times

with you.

why why why

Why must this happen just when i’m about to go internet-less for the next 2.5 weeks?

Bye to all humanity, I will certainly miss you guys. Help keep me sane by sms-ing me okay? =D

Till the next time, it’s me, woonie, signing off.

Amendment 1

Resolutions

11. Cut the insecurity crap.
12. Improve on anger management.
13. Learn to love myself more.

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“I’m a bit stupid in that respect, aren’t I?”

Till the next time, it’s me, woonie, signing off.

104 questions

1. Made out for more than 3 minutes?
time seems to fly really fast when making out.

2. Slept in a different bed?
compared to? I slept on the couch several times,when my relatives come to visit.

3. Loved someone so much that you couldn’t live another second without that person?
Felt this feeling before. but not so extreme la.

4. Made out with 2 different people in one night?
no.

5. Thought your cousin was hot?
Haha yes. She acted in random channel 8 shows, and was a calefare on Police and Thief.