I started watching anime, reading manga, and learning Japanese so that I have something to talk about when meeting friends, to prevent myself from having to sit there without knowing what the hell is going on when my friends talk about these stuff, to be able to understand and laugh at the inside jokes my friends make.
I started watching anime, reading manga, and learning Japanese to force a common interest between me and people I would soon meet in university, because pre-April 2009 me was probably a very much duller person who wouldn’t get along well with people even in university.
But it seems like this has backfired. I was told everyone has already ‘moved on’. I’m too late to the game.
And then there’s this whole ‘obsession’ thing. I have this ‘bad habit’ of wanting to be good at things that my friends are interested in.
Take for example Jubeat. Roger started playing Jubeat, Raphael started playing Jubeat, Meiyi started playing Jubeat, Aaron etc etc. I had to be in on that thing too. The trigger was the challenge between Aaron and I to see who can pass Evans first. This resulted in my spending hundreds of dollars on this arcade game, getting high scores in every single song on the game and perfecting my jubeat-playing skills. I was obsessed in showing off to my friends how good I’ve become in the game.
Same goes for anime. I became obsessed in catching up on every single show that my friends have watched, got myself a figurine in Cosfest 2009 because my friends had them too, buying manga after seeing Aaron’s personal collection etc. I wanted to know what that Odex thing was that people like Chang Xing and Raphael have been raging about during photog in JC.
I could list even more examples, like spending lots of time on the Ouendan-like game Osu! and Stepmania on PC, like listening to Touhou music and finding out about the ZUN-verse, like learning Colemak, like watching Evangelion 2.0 in theatres even before watching the original TV series or the first movie. The list goes on. The bottom line is, I simply didn’t like being left out of most of my friends’ discussions and meet-ups, and this led to my obsession in doing everything that my friends are interested in, just because.
I could easily do the same with LoL: read up everything about every single shit about this game, just so I can have something to contribute to the conversation at the dinner table with my friends. I mean, I should have done this earlier – giving up on anime and manga and plunging into LoL since most of them no longer talk about the former any more. And now I’m afraid that even if I start getting into LoL now, by the time I know enough about LoL, my friends would have already moved on to something else.
That said, I don’t regret starting my journey on this Japanese sub-culture. One side effect from this is that I get along much better with my sister now, who was into this whole anime/manga thing from way back since when onemanga.com was still a thing, and also, I wouldn’t be where I am now in my university life if I hadn’t started on this whole anime-watching and Japanese-learning thing.
What happened in the JSS club room last evening triggered this post. I did a bit of reflection and, through this post, concluded that I’m essentially an attention-seeking whore around my friends. Well, yippie-ki-yay motherfucker. Should I totally stop watching anime and reading manga because everyone has already moved on? I don’t know, what do you think? After all, I value other people’s opinions more than my own. I would have made a reference to Nagase Iori from Kokoro Connect about this but it seems like everyone is troubled by my interest in anime so I won’t go into detail about that.
Yeah, and stop that talk about me preferring anime characters over real people. You should know that most people who are like that don’t even bother going out of their house and mingle with real people. I’ll have you know that I take much offence in that so please stop.
Till the next time, it’s me, woonie, signing off.